Monday, November 23, 2015

Creatures of habit and consistency tend to play thing safe for obvious reasons. Change is necessary but those who like patterns in life don't necessarily take this change in the best ways. Being a creature of habit and consistency and being an  exchange student is more than a fish out of water situation. It's more like a platypus in the desert kind of situation. I knew I was a creature of habit and tended to not like change. Not until I went on exchange did I fully know the extent of that though. I feel I could survive here but not really thrive here and that is for a few reasons. First of there's really no consistency in life here, it's a crapshoot of what is next. Unlike my life in America where I had a pretty regular schedule between work practice and family life, here that is not such. The friends are not capable of being a friend like those I have at home, my friends at home have developed over years and took almost a year before I would actually hang out with one of them, so for me to say I have friends here after three months is hard for me to do. Also I can not use sarcasm here because they do not understand it and think Im serious, nor can I be mean to anyone because you just can't here, you have to tread very lightly and I don't do that all to well at times. Sometimes I just like to be the famous picture of Johnny Cash with that finger flying and the word formed on his lips. "Sometimes I am two people. Johnny is the nice one. Cash causes all the trouble. They fight."-Johnny Cash 
Am I happy I am here, yes, I would say this is the most adventurous, a test of will power, and strenuous thing I have ever done. And when asked why did I do this before I left, I truly didn't have an answer to why I dos this, now I have the answer. The answer to why I became an exchange student. To prove to my self that I could do something so challenging and difficult, and FINNISH IT. Some of you know me very well and would know that I tend to not finish projects quite often. And I suppose in a way I had to show my self that I was capable of setting out on something and achieving it. Now I probably could have chose something simpler. But this was something extraordinary and a wonderful opportunity to get out and explore, while still proving something to myself. So Mike Rich. When you asked me a while back in the early summer why I wanted to be an exchange student and I said I don't know but I'm happy I'm here. Well I figured out the answer so there you are.

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  1. Don't know if you meant to type this in black, but it makes it REALLY hard to read. Love ya!

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